Obscene Generosity

I was instructed to leave everything I bring to Uganda in Uganda when I leave. This philosophy is a little different than the “leave no trace” philosophy I learned when hiking in the national parks. I have to admit it’s been a challenge. Leaving behind the things specifically purchased for the trip (see the post about dresses) is relatively easy. As a matter of fact I can selectively pack to be sure I don’t bring anything I don’t want to leave behind.

But the idea of leaving my own things behind – the things I specifically purchased to fulfill a personal need or want – makes me want to cling to these things even more. I think, “I can’t afford to leave all my stuff here. I’d have to buy all new clothes when I return [see the post about shopping]. What about this book I want to put into my library, it was really good. This medicine is expensive and I might need it someday. I only have two pairs of sandals.”

And then…the shame. Selective packing and clinging to my “things”, when most Ugandans in the villages we’ll visit have no more than a tattered rag to drape across their frame, is appalling. This is NOT the kind of person I want to be. I want to be the kind of person who is obscenely generous, who doesn’t even think twice about giving away a most favorite/expensive/needed thing for the benefit of someone else, and who has the faith that God will find a new way to provide.

I have to admit, though, I’ll probably keep my underwear.

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow” (Matthew 6:28).